I confess

I confess - this morning I let the kids watch a show on TV while I did nothing more than paint my nails and read the news online. My nails look really nice, I painted them a really fall color called Copper Pumpkin. Evan and Grace are wearing their new jeans today. Evan's are a little big in the waist but the next smaller size were too short. Grace is wearing hers but isn't really happy since she wants to wear a dress today and I won't let her since she doesn't have one that is weather appropriate. If I let her - all she would wear are dresses since "she is a princess!"
I cannot wait until it's cool outside all the time - jeans and sweatshirt weather. Too bad that kind of weather is fleeting. Then it's into heavy winter jacket - freeze your booty off - type of weather, and I don't like that! Ah well anything is better than 95 degrees swelling up like roadkill type weather.
Yes- this blog is a bunch of nonsense, but it ate up the time that it took for my nails to dry. Now it's off to turn the TV off and listen to the kids complain that they want another show. Maybe I'll have something more interesting to say later. Until then...

Barf-O

We were supposed to go to my Mom's today for a little birthday party for her with just Meg, Seth & Ellie and the kids and I. We got there and were literally barely in the door and Grace said she didn't feel good. Then all of the sudden she threw up all over the floor. I cleaned it all up and her up and she was burning up! I had just rubbed lotion on her about an hour and a half before that and she felt fine. She was acting fine this morning also-playing, dancing, and being her normal self. But we came home much to the chagrin of the kids and she does have a 103-104 fever and says that her body hurts. I gave her Motrin and it brought her fever down significantly in no time so that's good. She also ate and drank a little bit. I'm just letting her veg out on the couch the rest of the day and hope she feels better tomorrow. I feel so bad for her when she doesn't feel good.

Salon

Grace went to the salon this morning and got her hair cut. She was such a good girl! She loooves the big girl salon! I had my Mom go with me though in case Grace wanted to sit on someone's lap and she did but that was ok. This is the second time I've taken her to Aldus to get her hair cut and this time the atmosphere was a little more tense. We got there and when we were called back, there was a woman sitting in the chair next to us getting her hair done. This woman was what looked to be about 4-6 months pregnant and she said she was starting to feel queasy and faint. Pretty much as soon as she said that she started to pass out and then started having a very mild seizure. It was so scary to see. I turned the kids the other way since I didn't want them seeing it plus I didn't want it to freak them out with everyone running over to her. They called an ambulance and she seemed fine after a few minutes. She was sitting up and talking and drinking some water. She said she has never had anything like that happen to her before. How scary to have that happen to you, let alone while you're pregnant. I hope she and her baby are fine now.
But back to Grace and her haircut - she looks sooo cute. It's just in a classic bob cut now. I will try to get some pictures posted here soon. I will probably take pictures tomorrow while we're at my Mom's with Megan, Seth & Ellie. I have to post a belly picture soon too. I've just been avoiding it since I feel so fat now. I won't even go there though ---!!

She's crafty

My Mom told me that she is going to be in a huge craft fair on 9/27 with my sister. I wish that I was as crafty as they are. I have been trying to think of things that I could make to sell but I just don't know if I have the time/energy for it. Between doctor's appointments and two kids and being pregnant with two more kids...there never seems to be enough hours in the day. I'm sure a lot of people out there can relate.

I was reading an article in a parenting magazine at the doctor yesterday about birth order and predisposed behavior. I don't think that it very true. I think it's all in how you raise your kids and the amount of discipline and time you spend with them. I just don't believe that only children are spoiled and middle children are neglected - and so on. I'm sure that there is SOME truth to it, but you just have to be aware in HOW you are raising your kids and the amount of attention you spend with each one individually should be equal.

Have to cut this one short-

Amazed

I'm amazed at how fast time is flying by with the kids. I cannot believe that Grace is going to be 3 soon and that Evan is starting to really talk now. I know that the more busy I am, the faster time goes by - so I'm scared at how fast time will go once the twins get here. I'm extremely ecstatic that school is starting for all of the kids on Monday. I can't wait!! I loooove when it's nice out and the kids are in school since I can take Grace and Evan outside and pretty much hear nothing and have the park and the rest of town to ourselves! I need to get some more fall shopping done for the kids also, and the mall is always less crowded once the kids go back to school also. I found some good deals at the mall the other day but ran out of money so I'm going to have to wait until next paycheck to get them some more things. We are anti-credit card so charging isn't an option! It's all about the debt-to-income ratio for when we go to buy another house!
Matt made some headway on the attic on his 3 days off this week. I'm actually surprised at how much he got done since we ran around a lot also. He talked to the neighbor about doing the electric work for it and he agreed to do it whenever we need him to. I hope that Matt can get a lot done in the first week of October since that is his next week off. That way we have enough time to set up the appointment to get the carpet installed and to paint. Speaking of painting, I'm going to have to recruit/bribe someone to help with the painting. I'm not sure how careful Matt will be painting! lol... I wanted to do a really neat faux finish but I don't think that is going to happen since I have to ask someone else to do it for me. I hate asking for help - I just don't like to admit that I can't do it myself. But I know that with my current situation, I can't not ask for help.

why?

Why is it that I complain about seeing weight gain and changes in my face - yet I cannot stop eating?!! I don't eat a ton at each sitting but I eat pretty much all day long. There is less and less room for me to put food since the babies are getting so big - but man I eat a lot! I am a little anxious to see how much I've gained at the doctor on Thursday but excited at the same time. I was told to try to gain roughly 24lbs by 24 weeks. I'm 24 weeks this week so we will see!!

Lots to do

I can't believe how much we have going on right now. Each day it's not much but when you add it all together it just seems as though we're constantly running around and have things going on. Today after Matt wakes up around 11 we have to take Evan to the doctor for a check-up. Then we need to go shopping for a new saw for Matt so that he can start framing out a section of the twins' room. After that it's a quick stop at the grocery store and then home to get dinner and tub and bedtime. Tomorrow morning we have to take Grace to the dentist. That should be interesting. I won't even get into that now! After the dentist Matt is just going to work on the twins room and mow the grass. Thursday I have a regular OB appointment to go to. I have so much to do around the house that it's scary. I just don't seem to have the energy to do it. I'm supposed to be posting belly pictures and I'm scared to. I don't want people to see how big I'm getting in places other than my belly. I really want Matt to buy me an elliptical machine for Christmas!! I'm going to need something to help get this weight off. (And yes, I'm selfish...I'm worried about getting the weight off now - before the babies are even here!!) I just don't like how I feel when i'm carrying around extra weight. I am trying to gain as much weight as my doctor is suggesting it's just scary that's all.
I just found out that someone else I know is pregnant with their second. I think their kids will be 3 years apart. I'm happy for them. This will be their last baby. As hard as this pregnancy is getting for me, I'm a little sad that I know that I won't ever be pregnant again. It's hard to explain. That said - we are SOOOO finished after this!!!
I better go get something done instead of sitting here blogging!

Happy Tuesday!

Loner

I haven't written in a few days, I've been pretty busy. We went car shopping for Matt and almost bought something and then chickened out. We're both having a hard time making the decision about what is best. There are just so many unknowns right now in regards to money that we should just wait until after the new year to do anything. We will see.

We now have a 'loner' tv since ours couldn't be fixed here. They didn't have the parts and it was too complicated. I'm such a tv snob now. This one is still a flat panel, but it's a 720 lcd and ours is a 1080 plasma so the difference is drastic to us. At least I have a tv though.

Starting labor day Matt is pretty much working the entire month of September with no days off, at least from the 1st until the 20th...It sucks so much for everyone. Not to mention that it's alllllll nights. I won't even go there right now. The money will be nice but money isn't everything.

We have to get moving on finishing the twins room...it's just now with him working over his next week off I have no clue when it's going to get done. He has two weeks off in a row the last week of Oct and first week of Nov but that's cutting it so close to me having the babies. Not to mention that we have to schedule for the carpet to be installed and everything. I'm so stressed about it.

Random: My Dad went to the emergency room this morning, he walked into an engine that was on a hoist in the garage and put a huge gash in his leg so he went and got some stitches. Luckily the ER wasn't crowded. He must visit the ER once a year for stitches!

Overtime day

Matt's at work today for an overtime day. He almost got forced to work tomorrow also but they found someone else since we have plans and a dr appointment at Maternal Fetal Medicine. Our tv that is less than a year old is broken. It's a flat panel plasma tv and it just shut off the other night. Well it turns out that it's something that effects a lot of this brand of tv so Panasonic is sending a repair guy out this week to fix it. Luckily it's still covered under warranty! I don't usually have the tv on during the day except when i'm showering and making dinner or if there is something that I want to catch a peek at. I have been searching for baby stories that are about twins so if I know that one of them is on and I think I can watch it - I won't bother to dvr it...but most of the time I just keep the tv off and watch it after the kids are in bed. I just don't want the kids sitting and tubing all day...Even though you would never know it with as much as Grace loooves Dora and Diego and knows everything about them! She also likes Max and Ruby a lot. Evan likes Blues Clues and Sesame Street. I try to alternate shows for them when I shower in the morning.

We had a good weekend this weekend. It was pretty hectic though. Friday we did errands and cleaned a little bit. Saturday Matt worked in the attic all morning and then we had TJ, Molly, Em and Colin over and had a blast. Grace really likes playing with Emily! And Colin - well he's just the cutest little thing!! I had a hard time holding him though since my big ole belly kept getting in the way! I miss snuggling with Evan - he always wants to crawl up on my chest and lay when he gets sleepy b/c that what we would always do before I was pregnant and now I can't. But I try to snuggle with him in other ways. He's such a snuggle bug! Sunday we went to a family party and the kids had a good time! They looove playing at my Grandmothers house -so much room to run and play with new toys and treats all the time! It was a lot of work to keep them awake on the 45 minute ride home!!

I'm trying to come up with what color I want to paint the twins new room and just have no idea...maybe i'll try to decide on a carpet color first and take it from there. I better get cracking here - I have laundry that needs to be folded before it wrinkles and i'm almost ready to eat another lunch! hehehe....eating for 3 is a lot of work!

Freaky Friday

Today is Matt's first day off and he's still sleeping. Getting up at 3am for work every day this week really took it out of him. I guess more than usual b/c there was a lot going on this week at work. He's officially on nights for his turn around at work which is supposed to start the weekend after Labor Day. That means about 2-3 weeks of constant working night shift. I hate it, but what can you do?! Just part of the job. It still sucks that I won't really see him for 2-3 weeks and the kids miss him terribly.

I have a lot to try and do today. I have some cleaning and finishing trying to clean up the flower bed since it won't be so hot out today. I have errands to run and some grocery shopping to do.

I'm trying to get this house organized and have been trying to since we moved here 2 years ago but it just doesn't seem to be working! I guess it all comes down to lack of storage space. I'm getting more creative though with how to store things so that's helping...but it just costs money.

Yesterday I was swelling up so bad that I had to put my feet up to try to get it to go down. I cannot wait for fall where we will have cooler weather!!!

Thursday.

Finally, Matt's last day of work before a week off. We have so much to do. I hope he can get a lot done on the twins room on Saturday and Sunday. I really wish I was able to help him. He is going to talk to the neighbor about the electric that needs to be installed up there. I hope that the neighbor will do it - we'll pay him of course - he did the rest of the wiring in the house and offered a few months ago to do it. As for today, I really overdid it yesterday and am so sore and crampy today so I'm not sure what I'm going to get into today. I am going to take the kids to the park at 3ish when Evan gets up from his afternoon nap as long as it's not raining. I really want to shampoo the living room carpet but am hesitant because we might just end up buying a new rug all together. This one has stains on it from various child related issues and we just can't seem to keep it clean or even get it clean-looking for that matter. I found one on clearance that I like at BJ's so I might just go get it and be done with it...as long as they still have it. I have to get back to BJ's before Sunday anyway to use all of my coupons before they expire. I'm going to stock up on diapers. I cannot even imagine how many diapers we're going to go through when the twins are born....3 in diapers for a little while - WOW! 2 in diapers was bad enough. I'm ordering a cloth diaper to try out on Evan just to see...cloth diapers have come a looong way so I figure that I'll give it a try at least. They say that cloth diapered kids potty train earlier so I'm just going to see what it's like with cloth - I researched and found highly recommended ones so we will see. I'll let you know how it goes. (And to those who think that I'm crazy - yea I probably am- but I'll do anything to save money since we're a one income family trying to support soon to be 6 people and buy a new house soon!!!) :)
That's all for now - I'll probably post more later - I have lots to say and haven't been talking to any adults during the day this week for some reason!

A need to vent.

Ok, I can't help it....I am SOOO annoyed right now and have no one to talk to !! Why in the hell do people get animals as pets that they don't want to bother with????? The people up the street whose house just burnt down had a pen outback for a large dog and two small dogs. When their house burnt down they moved across the street into a rental home that was owned my the same people as their original house. Well it turns out they have a zoo in their house, birds, rodents, reptiles, etc. Fine, whatever. Not my business. But now they are just leaving their 3 dogs - now 4 but I don't know where the 4th one came from outside in the pen ALL day and ALL night barking. And barking. And barking. It's hot outside. Why are you getting dogs just to leave them locked in a pen all the time?! I understand that people have to work and whatever, but the girl is HOME right now and they're STILL out there!!!! I can't handle the barking. It's coming through on the monitor from Evan's room and uggg...I just want to go let the poor dogs outside to stretch their legs!!!!!!!!!!!! It's not their fault that they're barking, it's the irresponsible owners fault!

Wednesday!!!!!!!

I don't know what to get into first today. I guess I have this problem almost everyday. There are so many things to do I just don't know what to do first! Then I have the issue of distractions! I start one thing and then get distracted and move on to something else. We are definitely doing some crafts outside today after Evan gets up from his morning nap (that he decided he wants to take again!) . Probably something messy like painting little wooden birdhouses or something. The kids love to do crafts! We're going to try to make some thank you cards also, but I might not have the right paper for that.

Nothing much to say right now other than I need to get motivation to start on a project and just don't know which to choose...

I just heard Evan say, "uh-oh Mama"...I better go see what he did that was an uh-oh!

Tuesday

I can't wait for Thursday evening when Matt is off for a week. Well, almost a week, he picked up an overtime day on Monday ~ we're taking it where we can get it! He won't be able to work much overtime in the late fall closer to when i'm due because i'm going to need so much help and then obviously after the babies are born I'll need a little help until I recover from not only the delivery but just letting my body recover from the pregnancy. I am hoping to get out one day on his week off to do a little Christmas shopping/Birthday shopping for Grace - I hope to get it all done by mid October. And what I don't get done i'll do online when the Christmas sales start. We're having our friends over on Saturday and i'm excited about that - people we can relate to!!!! And have fun with!!!! I can't wait! Sunday is Tour de Christiana so i'll take the kids out to see some of it for a little bit and then the kids and I might try to get out of town to go to a family birthday party at my Grandmother's house...we'll see how it goes. Matt is going to stay behind though to work on the attic. We HAVE to get it finished. And we thought that he would get a lot of it done on this coming week off and the next one in September but he is going to end up doing a turn around during his next week off - working for 2 weeks straight ugg...so he won't get anything done then. He'll be on night shift too. 2 weeks of night shift.

Another one...

I hope the kids and I can have another day like yesterday. We had such a good day, it was busy but good. Everyone was in a good mood, no tantrums, just a really great day. I am going to take the kids to the park today so run off some energy and do some things around the house. We might take a small shopping trip but I'm not sure yet. I have coupons for BJ's for diapers that are going to expire and want to use them It's $5 off a box of diapers plus I can use a manufacturers coupon so it's a really good deal. I have to try to finish up organizing my bedroom even though it's packed with boxes of things that are going to go in the twins room when it's finished. Matt is hoping to get a lot done on their room this weekend. He said he might get some help Sunday but i'm not sure that's set in stone.
Off to take a shower now...

Thankful

I get so caught up in daily happenings that sometimes I forget to be thankful for where I am in my life and what I have. Today, I took a minute to step back and really see what I have and how blessed I am. I am married to my best friend, who could ask for anything more. Matt is the most wonderful father to our kids. We have two healthy, unruly, good kids who sometimes give us more than we think we can handle but that's what being a parent is all about. We're pregnant with twins due in December. Someone must think that we're good parents to bless us with two more! I have come a long way...I have grown and matured in ways I never thought I would. I attribute that to being a parent also. Kids do funny thing to you. Things you never thought you would see yourself do or say. I used to say, I'll never say "xyz" that my parents said to me, and I find myself saying it! I never dreamt of driving a minivan...here I am, a minivan driving, toddler toting Mommy. I never thought that sleep deprivation and sheer exhaustion would be so rewarding. I guess you truly never know what being a parent is like until you are one. I thought that I knew what love was when I married Matt, and I do love him. It's just a different kind of love. Again, it's something I never would have believed before I had kids - that there was a more powerful love out there than the love that I have for my husband. I guess it all comes down to life being about constant growth...to never think that you have it all figured out. Being humble is important. I'm thankful that I'm 27 and not 21...thankful that I'm 27 and not 17...