Monday, March 16, 2009
Am I really cut out for this parenting thing? Seriously. I am a horrible Mother today, or at least I feel that way. I totally lost it with Grace. Yelling. Loudly. Then proceeding to snatch her up, stomp up the stairs with her under my arm and put her in the room slamming her door shut behind me. I yell sometimes, all parents do. And if you say that you don't, I would swear you were lying. I yell, but not like this. I could blame it on any number of things, lack of sleep, no breaks since Matt has been gone for what feels like forever, anything really but I won't. It's my fault and I feel horrible. I have a knot in my stomach. I can't even explain right now about Grace because I'm still so incredibly upset about it. I'm only blogging about it because I need an outlet. And being here with a three year old, a not quite 2 year old and two 4 month olds who just had shots is just not doing anything for me. I'm even hesitant about posting this because I don't want people thinking I'm an awful parent but I'm not one for sugar-coating. This is what's happening in my world, the good and the bad. Today has just been bad. Really bad.