Sunday, January 31, 2010

Oh, shit.

I yelled today. A lot.

I feel awful about it. I'm beyond stressed and am taking it out on the kids. I had such a horrible day. I'm hoping that after the kids are in bed that I can curl up and cry away some of the stress. The only way that I'm making it through the day is that I keep telling myself that tomorrow will be better. It has to be.

Between the selling/buying a house thing, Matt on nights plus working overtime making him only home for a day and a half over a ten day span, on top of the normal everyday stresses - It's taking it's toll.

I'm so tired of having to repeat myself 1000 times before someone responds to me or even acknowledges that I exist. The fighting, oh the fighting - that's a whole other blog entirely. The attitudes were things I seriously never thought would happen to kids until at least the age of 10. Wow, I was w-r-o-n-g. Madeline and Leah have even started to join in screaming when they don't get their way or a toy is taken from them.
I'm tired of doing something just to have it undone not even a minute later. (I know, that's what kids do but it still gets old.
I'm sick over fighting about meals. Just eat or don't eat.
I must repeat this saying a million times every day...

You get what you get and you don't get upset.

Maybe I just have to keep telling myself that.


chillingurl said...

Sorry your having a bad day. Tomorrow will be better. Take some time for yourself tonight once you put the kids to bed. I don't know really anything about raising children, but I know when I was little, my parents would say "eat it or don't" regarding the food issue.
I'm getting over my cold/flu, and once its completely gone I'll be happy to come over and hang out with the kids for a day(s)! :-)

Heidi said...

Girl I feel your pain. Dade is starved for attention because the girls are sick so he has had his fair share of, yelling, time out and swats on the butt. Plus my fuse is short since Mama is the only one anyone wants. Tomorrow is a new day. Take a deep breathe, thinking of you.