Not Me Monday!

There is no way that I just heard a Grandmother screaming in the face of a child who cannot be older than 2...I definitely would not have heard her say, "You are a f*cking pain in my as*, I'll get you a f*cking drink as soon as I f*cking feel like it. You just need to get the f*ck out of my face you little sh*t." I wouldn't have gotten a horrible sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and had to use all the restraint that I had to not go over to her and scream at her, or pick up that little girl and take her home with me and call the police.

Grace wouldn't have had an hour long tantrum tonight about nothing and then turn it off like a switch. That would never happen to me.

We wouldn't have had an open house on Sunday and had not one person show up except our nosey neighbors.

Explode

I'm ready to explode. I can't take much more without a break. A real break. A whole day and or night without kids. And a whole day or night with just my husband. I know how hard it is to juggle 4 kids. I know how stressful it is. I hate, hate, hate to ask for help. I hate to ask someone else to take on the stress but I've reached and exceeded my breaking point. I deserve a break. Matt deserves a break. We deserve some time together to just be us. To enjoy each other. To talk without a child interrupting. To eat a meal without cutting up someone else's food. To lay around and watch a movie. To just be Matt and Lindsay, not Mommy and Daddy.

Self-Portrait

I was reading another "Mommy blog" and they were doing a 'self-portrait' challenge so here's mine. I took this about 2 nights ago. Everyone was doing self portraits because 99% of the time Mom's aren't in pictures because we're the ones taking them! Of course I took the picture at 9pm after a long day, am totally exhausted and with no makeup...a lot of the other Mom's got all done up...not me! ;)

Happy Birthday Matt!

Happy 30th birthday Matt!

Strange

There was a strange occurence in this house this morning, everyone slept until 7:30am. You might think that it's not a big deal but the kids get up between 5:30am and 6am every morning like clockwork. Matt and I didn't end up climbing out of bed until almost 8am! It was glorious!

Matt is going to finish the replacement deck today. It already looks better. We are going to look at 4 houses tomorrow and I'm excited but anxious too. We know what we want, we just need to find it and for the right price!

Our House

Here are some of the pictures from the listing for the house. I didn't notice the blue ball under the dining room table until the listing was already posted. And now the wait begins for someone to at least want to come and look at the house...

We got to check out our listing for the house and it's a little surreal. I'm waiting for pictures to go up on Realtor.com and for the listing to be shown on Zillow.com.

Listed

We listed the house today. There's a big For Sale sign out front. I'm happy, sad, nervous, and anxious all at the same time. I do have more faith this time around about us finding the house that we're meant to have. Matt and I have questioned the decision to buy this house many times but we've always come back to the fact that we 'needed' this house. It was the right house for us at the time and now we need to find the next one. We're going to check out some houses on Thursday to get our feet wet with what's on the market right now.

I cannot believe how much Madeline and Leah have grown up over the last few weeks. They're really starting to talk - unless of course you want them to say something for someone, then they're mute. They have entered into a very clingy stage and I cannot wait for them to get past it. If I even dare go to the bathroom without them, they are in full blown screaming and crying fits. As soon as I return, they both turn it off like a light switch!

Grace has been difficult this past week. I don't even know what to say. She was fighting us going to sleep last night for 3 hours. Yes, 3 hours. And she was so tired!! I pray that tonight will not be the same fight!

Evan is my little man. He turns 3 in two weeks! He loves his trains, cars, trucks, tools, dirt and Jeeps just like his Daddy! He even got to take a ride in the Jeep with the top off yesterday, and he loved it!